19 June, 2023

Whisper Encryption

I finally sketched my loved one, though my video editing faltered as network files broke after disconnects; the secure tunnel she used linked to a now-closed cloud share from my school account—intended as a fail-safe for a temporary measure. Neither of us anticipated my alma mater patching a vulnerability exposed by colleagues, complicating recovery through another account, with authentication duplication seemingly impossible in my lifetime. I avoid technical writing, reflecting instead on jovial memories, like how my beloved inherited my loved one’s Nordic features—athletic and elegant—though my beloved’s passing left funeral details unknown, and contact with her family lost. Writing helps me center amid autism and ADHD’s balance. Though my running apps ceased updating, I still run, manually rebuilding connections with patience. My loved one’s chosen religion echoed my routine; a moment recalling my beloved’s talks on relationships, biblical tales of mercy, and inclusion, comforting her that she was accepted as an angel from birth. Memories of whispered verbal katas from my beloved pulled my distracted focus back to her. A Coast Guard colleague retrieved encrypted old photos, too vast to decrypt easily, embodying a delicate balance of love, memory, and resilience. I may share some sketches, capturing this dance of timing, accuracy, and enduring affection.