Mind Gaps

In moments shaped by water, memory, and duty, I reflect on a time when fear and resilience collided. Once terrified of deep water from a past drowning, I faced it again during a training challenge. My counterpart, who arrived despite grieving her drowned brother, saved me in a pool where I became entangled. Her sacrifice sparked something in me—I rescued us both, though she credited her brother. Over time, people around me filled in the blank spaces of my life, careers quietly monitored and witnessed by many. Recognized as calm under pressure, I became a drumbeat in chaotic moments, pushing forward and safeguarding others, even as parts of me remained compartmentalized. My beloved helped me rediscover my purpose, grounding me during memory lapses and emotional divides. Despite fractured timelines and security concerns tied to her writing, the bonds I’ve formed endure, though relationships with me often require patience. Living with autism, I noticed new patterns emerge—restrained movements and episodes revealing sensory rhythms. Guided by sound cues and natural observations, I blend logic and empathy to act precisely, especially under pressure. Though distracted at times, I anchor myself with markers like martial arts, writing, and science. Approaching space and all its challenges, I continue to breathe, reflect, and press on—for family, for you.